Waiting For a Spring

I have been working in the IT industry for considerable amount of years now. The very first thing I understood was, either you slog like an owl day and night or remain to be free like a donkey aimlessly. When I was a fresher in my company, I used to be exuberant and any piece of work given to me would be completed with greater commitment and passion. No doubt the commitment is still there. Creating opportunities and grab anything that comes to me used to be the motive then. All that ransacked the mind was, one has to have learning curve irrespective of work culture and the kind of coworkers they have. Over a period of time I was quite skillful in the technology I was working and did not require any external motivation to get over the trauma of being new to something.

The industry accepts a person that he/she is comfortable enough to handle things after a year of experience irrespective of he/she has worked during that time. Anyways the first year in my career was so hectic. I had enough learning curve and was even proud at those times thinking that I was blessed to work in a hottest technology in the market. Nevertheless, I still claim the technology is interesting, but the work what I do matters.

I have always observed that the work was like a fluctuating weather. It’s either scorching heat or biting cold, but never a spring. Last year my project was demanding more than 18 hrs of dedication in a day. passion turned out to be pressurising rather.I should say people were ruthless to approve leaves even when we tend to fall sick. There used to be times when we get back to home past midnight and back to work in the morning itself. The minimum time to afford for eating and sleeping were also difficult. When the other members in the team required leaves in their critical position, one member in the team has to always compromise .Challenging work and the hope of climbing up the ladder always helped to revive the spirit of accepting the situation and not appreciating the complaints that persisted. The stressful work culture made me think many times even to look for better options. But running from a problem does not help and nothing is assured that one may not face the same situation in a different place. I used to have a feeling that only my project is so tiresome and others keep enjoying the luxuries that the company offers.Though I am a kind of person who really does not like such work environment I was still helpless and had to accept it.

I fathom that, change is the only constant thing. Now I could hardly see stressful projects. I tend to remain with a feeling that almost many are relaxed checking emails and playing games. For having worked so hard for a long period, one really deserves such a period when one can devote more time to their personal priorities.But over a period of time ,remaining workless at office hours ,makes one feel guilty for not doing anything. I am very sure the company does not loose anything as it expects to work only when it demands.Its wise to make use of such time in preparing for any technical certifications or any other note worthy thing.But continuing with it in long run does not give any pleasure and it also creates boredome soon.

Well, the trend of the industry is in such a fashion that one has to swim with the tide. There is no point in howling about it. But I wish there could be some pleasant season as well ,where in one can work only during the business hours, typically an ideal balance between personal and official hours.

I am not here to conclude anything, but then thought would share a general phenomenon that is prevalent across.