Philosophy ?

For a while now, I have been having a lot of philosophical thoughts. My perspective towards many things has been very philosophical. I could also say living and believing practicality. Sometimes the result of extensive thinking has even lead to confused thinking.

I have this habit of looking back about how a particular day was a year back and get thrilled of all the events that take place in the due course. Today when I look back, I am very convinced that today is a gift compared to the day it was a year back. This might also be the result of thinking that everyday is a gift.

One thing that I have been wondering about life is, things that we want to happen are the ones that happen at a later point of time when we least expect them to happen. By then we get tired of dreaming and move on. Usually our mind starts to think “why did this not happen at the time we want them to happen...?” Well how nice it would be to get things at the time when we want them. The timely gift always gives immense pleasure and is also very memorable.But we know the fact that things don't happen at the time we want and when they happen at the time that we don’t want, we get mad. I have an answer for every question that arises within me. “Probably everything that happens has a good reason behind it”.

One other thing that I wonder is, there would have been times in our life when we would have missed to enjoy very small things. Those are the things that we gain interest at a later point of time and then we feel bad for having missed it before. For instance most of us are very cautious about our food habits and would have avoided eating many food stuffs. Unfortunately we gain interest when we don’t get them to eat anymore :(
I remember the days when I haven’t showed any interest in eating. Now I really miss boiled sweet potato, boiled peanuts, vazhappoo, vazhathandu, palakottai sambar(jackfruit seeds), ladies finger. We don’t realize the value of anything until we have and miss them like hell when we don’t have them. That’s life I guess!
So now, I relish everything that I have and enjoy everyday.

By having a lot of practical and philosophical discussions within myself, I realize that my perception towards life has changed a lot. When I get a feeling that I am being fooled or taken for granted or when people irritate me, I have an answer to put down my fuming feelings. I just cannot tolerate at those times but I tell to myself that it matters more what I think about myself rather than what others do. Well, most of the times this has a very good effect cuz this attitude helps me to refrain from reacting for most of the situations. According to me response to a stimulus triggers the effect to be more and this forms a chain reaction.

I am not sure why I started writing about this.

Am I confused ? May be Yes or may be No.

Am I very practical ? May be Yes or may be No.